Nothing can separate, even if I ran away - your love never fails.

You stay the same through the ages; your love never changes. There may be pain in the night, but joy comes in the morning! And when the oceans rage, I don't have to be afraid because I know that you love me and your love never fails.

I want to be forever young.

In anticipation of flying to Vancouver Island to see him one last time before he moves back to New Zealand, I’m rocking a pic of me and my good kiwi buddy Nathan on my Blackberry this week. Can’t wait ‘till Tuesday!

I know it's only one day in, but I'm kind of having a rough time with mod break. I know it's really sweet that I've got a job and that I'm able to pay for my education, but I really feel as if I'm missing out on the opportunity to rest, to have a break, and instead am working eight hours tomorrow when it's the last thing I want to do. Most everyone is gone, and this is a very lonely town right now. Caronport doesn't feel like this usually, but I feel incredibly heavy-hearted. I don't know why exactly.

I can't wait to get back to the coast and see a bunch of people I miss and love very much.

Feeling so fly, like a G6.

It is so late but I feel like there's something to do before I sleep, because I'm being kept up but not in a bad way so here goes.

Things have been so sweet! God is so good to me in so many ways, it just blows my mind. Actually! There's always so much to be thankful for and to celebrate and it's such a blessed time. I don't want it to pass too quickly, yet I can't wait for what's coming!

First, RU. Things are going super well in Refined/Undignified, it seems each week we become more and more of a family. We're learning a new show (well, new for those of us who haven't been on the team before) called "Want More" and its so much fun. It's of course mostly hip hop but we've also been learning other styles such as "sexy salsa" and ballroom, for brief bits of some dances. Such a blessing and a joy to be doing this. Early work is also starting for a brand-new show called "Secrets", for which I'll be helping create a segment that I'll feature in which is thrilling and intimidating but more than anything exciting.

This week we had day of prayer and it was INCREDIBLE to see what the Lord did amongst the guys in my dorm in freeing them of heavy, heavy chains and stirring up compassion and love in our hearts for one another and the struggles and burdens we're facing. Victory was seen so clearly. I'm seeing much of what I saw in Kaleo but in very different ways, as this isn't a small program of 28 students; but a campus of hundreds, a dorm of 50, a team of 15, a quad of 4 and so on. There are many different communities I find myself in concurrently.

I'm learning so much, mostly outside of the classroom (ironically). Tons about the Body of Christ (the church and what it was REALLY meant to be), the Holy Spirit, purity, brotherhood, love, transparency, perseverance and trust in the Lord. God has really blessed me with incredible people out here who are looking out for me and help me out in really huge ways, and giving me tons of opportunity to step out in trust and truly abide in the love he provides.

I'm also loving the Word like never before. Reading the Bible no longer seems like an obligation, but a compulsion! It is such a joy and the Lord is speaking to me through His Word in some huge ways.

2 Corinthians 1.3-5 says:

"All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ."

There have been times in my life that I have been familiar to suffering, but my days here are full of His comfort. Don't be confused, my walk (/race) with Christ is not characterized by suffering. Rather it can be characterized by opportunity, blessings, providence, healing, love, freedom, truth and victory; this is my life abiding in Him, and He is good and worthy of my faithfulness, even on a road marked with suffering - He is worth persevering for! He's the only One worth living for, the One who provides life itself!

"When all of a sudden, I am unaware of my afflictions, eclipsed by glory; and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great Your affections are for me. And heaven meets Earth like an unforeseen kiss, and my heart turns violently inside of my chest - I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way that He loves us!"

'How He Loves' by David Crowder Band.
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I Love College!

What an epic night! Took my Rebel out for a shoot, had a painfully easy shift and got off work early, got up to some adventure that cannot be disclosed, but, rest assured, was incredible, got some ice cream and a sub at The Point, then rented "Speed" and watched it with my roomie James. Tomorrow - thanksgiving and my Sabbath! Absolute rest. A much-needed break. Thank you Jesus.

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The few students still in Cport for thanksgiving watching the game at The Point.

I get to close the place myself for the first time tonight :)
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Psalm 18:4-6, 16-19

The ropes of death surrounded me; the floods of destruction swept over me.
The grave wrapped its ropes around me; death itself stared me in the face.
But in my distress I cried out to the Lord; yes, I prayed to my God for help.
He heard me from his sanctuary; my cry reached his ears.

He reached down from heaven and rescued me; he drew me out of deep waters.

He delivered me from my powerful enemies, from those who hated me and were too strong for me.

They attacked me at a moment when I was weakest, but the Lord upheld me.

He led me to a place of safety; he rescued me because he delights in me.

True stuff.

Heavenly Father, you always amaze me.

Two things you told me;
You are strong and you love me, yes you love me.

Your love is strong.

i need Your loving hand to guide me through the maze of all the things inside me.

... And let me know that I'm alright.

Tonight is hard. I know that You are at work. I see it unmistakably, all around me and far away. You won't relent until you have it all. You are good and you stay the same and your love is strong and I am loved by you.

Right now all I want, though, is for everything to stop. For life to pause and for someone to hold me close and help me make sense of this, or tell me to forget it, that I don't need to remember the struggle because it's over, that there is freedom in more than just spring.

If joy comes tomorrow morning in any way proportionate to this, I will be swept over with it. Please Father, let it be so.

It's been a crazy few weeks to say the least. Refined/Undignified has had our first two performances; the first in Lethbridge, Alberta for a youth conference (we performed the kick-off and then led workshops over the weekend), the second for a Pakistan Flood Relief benefit here in Caronport. I've been working TONS (stupid much) and trying not to stress out about school.

I've been really enjoying my time and loving the fellowship I've been having, super-blessed to have the brothers here that I do, and I've been soaking up the Word like never before. It's not an obligation, it's a compulsion, something I'm deeply enjoying.

Things are prettyyyy sweet.